and i’ve tried to get ahold of you. Just so we can have a simple 10 minute conversation. One question, but that id all. But instead of being a “friend” like you claim you ignore me, making me feel like a complete idiot. I’m not trying anymore. I’m really not.
You’re not worth the stress and sad feelings. When your ass wakes up and realizes i’m gone, i hope i’m so far away that you can’t even see my footprints in the dirt.
there is WAY too much on my plate and i’m losing control over everything. I refuse to relapse into what i once was. It’s been two years and i’m damn proud of that. However, it’s an everyday struggle for me. I can’t sit here and say “I wish i had someone to talk to” because i do. I have countless people who love and care about me. I just don’t have the strength, physically or emotionally to try to express why I feel the way I do. It’s so many things that never seem to end. I need to remind myself of what I love about my life.
Waking up in the arms of the one person you care about most is the most incredible feeling in the world. Last night was amazing, and I was not expecting it at all. However, I am so happy that it did. I knew that it wasn’t gone but only hidden because of the circumstances. Every bad thing that has happened over the past few weeks that caused me to be so stressed out doesn’t even matter anymore. I won’t use the “L” word but i can’t lie to myself anymore. The “L” word is exactly how I feel about you.